The official diagnosis

I realize it has been almost a year since I've posted anything, and I have every intention of going back and write down all the big things. but today, I must write this down for me to remember this when I feel weak. Yesterday, Liam was officially give the diagnosis of Hemiplegic cerebral palsy. Meaning, he has some paralysis and tone on the left side of his body. Took the news pretty well since I was kinda expecting it. Of course we didn't WANT to hear it. We wanted him to come out of all of this untouched. But we were also realistic and I was expecting it. I am SO grateful that he came out of all of this on the easy side of it. Being able to feed himself, breathe, hold himself up and is thriving wonderfully in everything. Jackie, his therapist says he is looking amazing. And I agree. He amazes me. daily. which brings me to this morning. While I was on the treadmill this morning I got lost in my thoughts. All the scenarios and challenges Liam might encounter through life. and then it hit me. Clear as day. Like Heavenly Father was waiting for me to finally have some thinking time and tell me this. "Liam's spirit decided to come down to earth and give up coming to a perfect body and come to a broken body instead to be a strength, and daily lesson to his family. To strengthen us and to keep us praying and holding onto Heavenly Father every single day." The PEACE this thought brought to me was amazing. It's so obvious. Ever since Liam came, our whole family has come SO far. We have always worked hard to be good members of the church. However, Liam's spirit has made us all SO much better. I have never felt closer to my Father in Heaven as I have lately. I have never felt the spirit so strong before. Liam has brought an amazing spirit into our home. And he decided on it before he even came. He is so happy. and he makes us all so happy. His siblings adore him. and they protect him. and I KNOW Liam will always keep them grounded and close together. I am SO SO SO thankful that Liam trusted us as his family. That he chose US to have his blessing. And his spirit. And that we get to enjoy him and his triumphs and also defeats. I'm so glad that his mission wasn't to just get a body. I know his spirit is strong enough to have done so. I'm glad he decided to stay and be a daily lesson to his siblings and his parents. All I want to do is be strong, supportive and a mom who can support him and his siblings and husband in all they do. He makes me want to be better. So I can measure up to what he needs. He gave up so much for us. For our strength. I owe it to him and the rest of my family to do everything in my power to help him succeed. In EVERYTHING. Love the gospel. And that I get to have the spirit to help me learn these life lessons and why they happen. We love you MR. Liam!!! I