An Old Soul

Every day I wake up, make my husband his lunch, pump, get kids fed, changed and off to school, pump again, get ready to go to the hospital, arrive at the hospital and pump again, and then I reach my destination. Liam's bedside. I softly call out his name and he wakes up. He looks at me and every worry in the world is washed away. Not just two little eyes looking back at me. But two big windows to an amazing old soul. I've been told by nurses who have him for the first time, that they look at him and see SO much depth. they see an old soul. He knows what he's doing, and how to get the job done. He knows exactly why he's here, and his mission. All the worries about him go away as soon as he looks at me with those big eyes and I just feel joy. to the be mom of this amazing little spirit. How did we get so lucky to have him? My testimony and faith in God is strengthened every single day because of him. He is blowing everyone at the NICU away with his improvements. Liam is weighing in at just over 4lbs. (he was born at 2lbs 11 oz) he has started to latch on and drink small amounts of milk from me. which is GREAT since he's not supposed to know how to suck, swallow and breathe yet. OH what a joy it is to see him do this at 33 weeks when they don't usually start trying until 34ish. He is a CHAMP at it. His head size is staying stable so he gets to stay down in provo unless things change. but we only see them changing for the better. He was put back on a cannula yesterday because he is focusing all of his energy on learning to eat and wearing himself out. They tell me it's totally common and normal. as he grows he'll get the strength to keep his numbers up and be off of it. No biggie they say. He was moved to a crib!! no more incubator for him. It's getting hard to leave him every day. when He sits there and stares at you and holds your hand. just a few more weeks. just a little longer... Last week they came and took a few pictures of Liam and I to put on the new Utah milk bank website and brochures. Word got out that I'm a milk cow (really I am.... 70oz a day worth...) and that Liam was cute as a button and they came and paid us a visit. excited to see where they put us :)